but being in Poland and not dealing with the suppression or being suppressed anymore. i just wish it was a better country or more evolved.
its almost like being deported from prison or going from a prison to a prison in the free world.
I feel you on that one. It's one of the things that I love enough to make me spend 18 months here, and to convince my Polka to come back, (she strongly prefers NYC, citing the fact that divide and conquer, and cancel culture itself is being propagated by the new regime, despite it coming from "the right") I actually agree with her 100%. I've met many Americans and Brits who are so fed up with recent developments that they're blind to the same thing occurring right now, (though on a smaller scale, for now,) in Poland.
Poland is as polarized as the states, except that everyone looks the same, and most (young) Poles don't even have a name, accent, etc. that gives away their region. In the US we have race and accent. If you're a white guy with an NYC accent, you will be distrusted by conservatives in red areas unless you're basically wearing a MAGA hat. In NYC, people are waiting to catch me say something "bigoted." It's never happened in real life. I've gotten miles better at being a Machiavellian f*ck, this summer especially. This one always gets my friends laughing: I speak a regional dialect of Arabic well, not perfect, but enough that people think I learned it at home and have told a few Arab shopkeepers my dad was from (place of regional dialect) and passed away when I was a kid and that my mom raised me Christian, but that I have been reading the Quran. They treat me better than actual Muslims. I've heard different things about whether or not this is actually halal, (Arabic for Kosher,) but it's been working at two different deli/minimarts.
When it comes to dealing with black dudes, they're usually super relaxed. As long as you're confident and treat them with some respect they're fine. I thought one of the most interesting things over the summer was seeing how when one is very calm and confident, yet polite, you can literally see them do a 180; facial expressions lighten up and body language relaxes. The crazy ones rarely travel more than a few blocks from their home. Black women are women, and every man should know how to talk to a woman. I once saw some vandalism/graffiti in Cuba that said: "la pinga no tiene ideología" which word for word means "the dick has no ideology." That rings true to my personal experience, (but it definitely DOES have a preferred "phenotype".)
My biggest issue was on a zoom call at Uni. - I'm going back to school part-time, I wanna teach in schools. The field I'm in requires a very
flexible moral code, and I want to do my part in fighting this madness, as futile though it may seem. - a girl with a different "phenotype" compared to me called me a racist, and I responded by attacking her with the intention of being as harmful and humiliating towards her as possible, as a lesson to any other idiot that thinks slandering a stranger is okay. She started crying and logged off. The teacher almost failed me until I "took the nuclear route" and had a colleague modify a bot that filled his inbox with (literally) thousands of emails all with my message and name every day, all day and night until he explained his biased grading. He gave in after 1 day. I let it run for another 48 hours. The actual director of the program ended up actually apologizing to me. The girl did as well.
The scary thing is that I got like 4 weak-willed cowards who private chatted me with on zoom asking me for my number. I literally responded to all 4 asking "Why are you too afraid to use the public chat?" That's honestly the only problem I've had. It's solvable. The problem is that all the sane people have been scared into staying quiet. These censorious, anti-liberty, authoritarians only comprise a very small minority. They grow every time someone stays silent. If you stay silent and turn the other cheek like a good Christian you don't have the right to act appalled by their growing power in your society. Anyone not supporting a family, or a relative, who sits on the sidelines and watches in silence while they destroy all America, and by extension a lot of European Societies, hold dear is the reason this continues. Be smart though. Every schizo who acts on hate and a desire for "glory" is one point for the other team. If everyone stood their ground, hit back with the same force they were hit with, and understood that we are in a new type of warfare and therefore must not bemoan, but rather understand education, big tech, and the media's power without hate, rashness or falling victim to pessimism, we would already have this insanity behind us.
The silver lining is knowing that if the radicals end up destroying Europe and North America, their reign will be short-lived. Once their "exotic, oppressed, brown" pet Muslims from the Middle East arrive they will learn the "religious" westerners they shamed, were comparatively basically atheists. I don't like what they represent, but one cannot honestly say that they are cowardly, weak-minded, or averse to extreme acts of violence if it is necessary. The interpretation of Islam most common, (though religiosity varies...) teaches that the greatest thing one can aspire to do is live for Allah, not oneself. How one lives this idea out through action in their own life varies...
Get a TEFL course, email professors, and offer to record audio for free in exchange for letters of recommendation. Write a ****** book about your life, put it on Amazon. Pay someone on Fiverr to review it using American accounts.
Or change your name to a Crimean Tatar one. Then apply to Germany as a refugee citing far-right Poles sending you death threats, (pay someone to send you death threats for proof.) Tell them you found out you were part Crimean Tatar, got interested in Islam, and now as a Polonized Tatar your life is in danger. If you wanna really seal the deal, write a book about it.
You expect me to believe that you have no options? Your situation sucks, I'll admit. Have you tried calling the embassies of other EUfriendlier people or a more "civilized" populace? I've met so many people who treat the "modelo virus" as if it has made life impossible. It's made it a lot harder, but you spent longer than a week or two in Prison, you definitely know how to kombinować much better than you think.