I rather let myself get killed then leave the church
Well, that's your... problem, I guess.
If I stop being a member, then everything I work for and live for become meaningless to me.
To be honest, this is a strange attitude to me. Faith is far more important than belonging to one denomination or another. But, as I wrote - that's your business and your take on it. Other people may see it differently than you. It doesn't necessarily mean they're wrong or "greedy".
from my perspective you are trying to persuade me to attempt suicide so back off before I get infuriated
Did you lose your mind completely? I'm not trying to persuade you to do anything, let alone to "attempt suicide" o_O What on Earth is wrong with you?