that is stupid shyt that can kill people
The "death factor" is what makes you feel so alive.
It's the same when I do cave or wreck dives.
Being in that environment, means controlling your emotions completely. It means that every action is deliberate, and everything is informed by concerns of safety for your companions.
Short of going to Ukraine, and experiencing the trenches, this is the closest one can come close to the feeling of being alive that the soldiers get.
Many of those crazy motherf*ckers don't want the war to end, because it will mean the end of their "pleasure".