Well As I said earlier.. I made a promise to her that I will come visit her once and I did go there. I had a visa for Turkey and as well for Schengen states. I went to Warsaw and then I took a bus to Lublin. I thought it was not the correct way just to show up so I had informed her that I would be coming. When the bus was stopped I could see her right in front of my eyes... I never thought I would be able to witness that..I didn't know what to do .. I forgot about everything that happened and any reason..for me it was just her.. i didn't know how to react at first whether to kiss her or to hug her or shake her hands or scream at her ...but I coudn't control myself and I hugged her ... I never wanted to let go of her...I held her tight in my arms...and I cried ... I never asked her any questions..because I knew she had no answers to my questions....She asked me to be her friend ... and stay for my entire vacation there but it seemed like I would be cheating on that guy if I did that..I told her that I can't because things had now changed and I came there to tell her that not everything is glass and I was true to my word...
I told her if she needed a friend she is always welcome..This day I will never forget.. I remember and treasure each moment ... May be I am a fool but I do watch a lot of movies and I remember this dialogue.."If you really love her.. then you should let her go" and that is what I did. I spend one day with her and next day I was off to Prague ... I stayed there for two days with my friend and then I went to Turkey where I spent the remaining days of vacation. But every night I cried and would wake up with wet eyes .. But life goes on..
She moved on .. I also have to and just not to think about her I have forced myself to do a lot of work and keep myself busy as much as I can so that at the end of the day I am so tired that I can't think of nothing...but thoughts do creep up..feelings do come back... I guess it was meant to be. It will take time for me to move on but I will never be able to love anyone as much I loved her. The lesson learned is that don't trust anyone except from yourself because you can't deceive yourself.
Thanks and much appreciated for your comments and some wonderful people who have been very supportive and have actually helped me in this difficult time. May God Bless you all. Have a nice day or night.
Cheers!
I told her if she needed a friend she is always welcome..This day I will never forget.. I remember and treasure each moment ... May be I am a fool but I do watch a lot of movies and I remember this dialogue.."If you really love her.. then you should let her go" and that is what I did. I spend one day with her and next day I was off to Prague ... I stayed there for two days with my friend and then I went to Turkey where I spent the remaining days of vacation. But every night I cried and would wake up with wet eyes .. But life goes on..
She moved on .. I also have to and just not to think about her I have forced myself to do a lot of work and keep myself busy as much as I can so that at the end of the day I am so tired that I can't think of nothing...but thoughts do creep up..feelings do come back... I guess it was meant to be. It will take time for me to move on but I will never be able to love anyone as much I loved her. The lesson learned is that don't trust anyone except from yourself because you can't deceive yourself.
Thanks and much appreciated for your comments and some wonderful people who have been very supportive and have actually helped me in this difficult time. May God Bless you all. Have a nice day or night.
Cheers!