Which in a very short time I realised that strangely enough, It felt nothing like home and in fact I now feel like I have left home.
You sound quite confused at the moment, the problem with leaving a country and then returning is not only re-entry shock but all the reasons for you leaving in the first place will come flooding back. Maybe you slip back into some bad habits!!
There is a process to emmigrating it works in three stages:
1. total amusement, everything is great. 1 year
2. reality kicks in, the realisation that this is life now, the little things become annoying you begin to miss certain things from your past life. 2 -3 years
3. total acceptance, you have adjusted and now live in your new country. 3 years +
Problem is when you re-patriate you have to go through the whole proccess again.
I dont consider Poland my home, Englands my home but i dont want to bring up my daughter in that country either. I know that if i went back there to live i wouldnt like it after a couple of months.