Love /
Broken Heart, An amazing girl from Poland [139]
I feel a bit silly writing this. I have NEVER felt like this before and to be honest, not sure what to do.
I met this Polish girl, she was working over here, in the UK. The first time we met I felt a connection. We got talking a few times and I very quickly realised that I was getting feelings for her. I did not tell her this as I did not want to scare her away! Also, she told me she had a boyfriend and baby back in Poland and she was working here to get some money to pay off loan. She said she wanted to leave her boyfriend.
Basically, I knew she was leaving england to go back to Poland in 2 weeks, but when I went to see her, I was told she has gone and not coming back. I was shocked but now I realise how deep my feelings are for her and I never got the chance to tell her how I felt. I really am truly broken hearted and I have never felt like this before. I feel like my heart has been ripped out. I actually feel sick and quite ill. I have no contact number for her and I would not hound her anyway as I am no stalker! I did give her my number but I am not sure if I wrote it down correctly as I thought she would have rang me.
I am stupid, and I know many people may laugh but I just want to know how to move forward now. I am 32 and she is 24.
I feel like all is lost and really very sad, nothing else matters right now and I can;t stop thinking about her. I can not sleep. I can not focus. They say time is a healer and I really hope it is because I feel the lowest I have ever felt.
I want to get my life back together and not sure I have the strength right now.
I would appreciate any help or advice.
Oh, she made me a Polish coffee and I liked it. I will never forget THAT coffee, it was so special as is Anna.