/ I had a Polish female friend. Horror in my mind...
In all honesty my feet haven't always been firmly rooted to the ground, we all do crazy things when we are growing up, that is part of growing up, experiences and things you do make you the person you become. That is why i can't turn my back on her or just give up a friend because she is still only young with much more growing up to do. Her life, not mine.
I think you are right that she is attracted to the risky behaviour, who isn't at times, it makes you feel alive. She isn't an only child, but the eldest of 3 sisters. So sure there is pressure on her, her parents want them all to do well and she leads by example. The times i have been there, sure the parents are strict but i don't think it is a bad thing, strict in the way that things need to be done around the home etc, these are skills many of the youth of today lack, who wants a woman who cannot make pierogi :) :). hehe.
Sure i can put how many people she has slept with behind me (it isn't the number but the way she goes about getting these men), but can she? It is her choice on what she does, maybe it doesn't bother her, but she just tells me it does.
There is no reason for me to forgive her, we were never a couple, just two friends who got too close, rushed things. I mean she has to finish her studies etc, there is no point in getting in to a relationship at this moment in time even if we did care for each other.
Trust is something huge, and something that has to be there or there can't be a future. At this moment of time after her adding him back to her list, i wonder why she did, does she want him to go back to meet her.. If so then that is just something i will accept and move on.
Who knows what the future holds, maybe she will be a future partner in years to come, after all we are still young, anything can happen. I am just looking out for her, not trying to save her, you can't save someone who doesn't want to be saved. Also, although i could see her as my future, at the moment it isn't the right time.
sorry, I was just trying to cheer you up with a bit of humour.. I know how hard it is if you really like her..but at the end of the day, only you can decide if she is worth your affections or not. Maybe make a list of the pros and cons of your relationship and see which outweighs the other.
Don't worry, i know you were :) and you were successful :).
Thanks for reading if you made it this far, i know it was pretty long, and even longer if English isn't your first language, but hey, every little helps when learning another language.