Love / I am heart-broken by my polish guy [25]

yes, we are in gay relationship for a brief period though i totally trust him. i am not polish. and he is my 1st guy to kiss and to go to bed. he said he will bring me to Poland, go for tour together. he said what happened between us has gone too fast for him and he wants space. and i have been respecting that, but i don't know if he still wants me after a long torturing silence. i m very lonely and feeling so empty inside.

Love / I am heart-broken by my polish guy [25]

thanks guy.. i don't know how to do it, but i will try to be strong

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follow up to the previous, i finally bumped into him in a gay club last Saturday. he was with his two friends. i gave him hug and asked why he hasn't contacted me for 2 months. he said he mobile dropped into water, and he still need space.. when i danced with him, he didn't even look at me. when i hugged him, he didn't touch me. his two polish friends teased me, showing cross-fingered on me like i m a bad spirit, and laughed at me, pushed me away and treated me like a dirt. worst case, he did see how his friends treated me, and did nothing. he then said he left earlier home and so i bid him goodbye. but i saw him again at 4 am with his friend, and this time he danced so intimately with him and i was hurted again. and i received mail from him today.. saying..

Hi,
I'm happy you found a nice guy i club :)
I wish you good luck.
Have a nice day :)

i was why i would find a guy while i was crying all time in the club knowing how he was so cold with me? i texted him saying this is not fair accusation and he said he trusted his friend, but his friends were so nasty to me. i begged him to call me as he didn't pick up his phone, but he said we are not together. i am not with him and he is not with me. he said i don't understand him, saying my approaches and behavior was the causes of this, saying we have different culture. yes, he's a polish and i m a malaysian, but i love him as who he is, regardless culture.

i am all heart-broken now. i said to him, "wojciech, you don't appreciate my love. i m leaving you and free myself. i still like to see you smile and find your love".. and that love is not going to be me.. cause you have hurted me and there is nothing more hurt and pain i can take anymore..

why he's not listening to me? has he ever liked me before.. he said he wants space, i gave him space and i respect that.. my heart is so cold now.. and i am numb in love and relationship.. friends said he's bottom of the crap, liar, and worthless and furthermore ugly looking.. but i just like him who he's.

guess that make me more sense to leave now and free myself. i have no more tears to cry for him.. i think he has done enough damage on me, and i wish he is happy doing that to me.. i will leave him in peace to find his own world and i will deal with mine to retrieve my dignity & self worth again..

i did say "lubie cie tak bardzo" to him for the last time, take care Wojciech!

Love / did i push him away [36]

Lena

I feel so sorry for you. If u read what I have been through before, I can completely understand your pain. I still wish him well, though in my heart, honestly, why would I do that for things that he has put me through and feel no remorse at all. So, pick up the pieces and forget the sh*t, and flush down into where he belongs too (this is what i keep reminding myself). You deserve much much better and he will deserve what he has done to you.

And also, NO, you didn't push him away, he's a sc** cheat from the start, this is what he's

Take care

Dee

Love / I am heart-broken by my polish guy [25]

it has been more than 7 months now since last i bumped into him and he dumped me. he's still in the same club looking for new guys to flirt and kiss, and he moved on straight eversince, or should i say he never really bother to care for me. he blames me for everythings. my friends start to get angry with me for being avoidance to go any more to the gay scenes, but i just could let myself down again when become soft everytimes seeing him. Yes, i still have feeling for him. He never tried to find out if i am alright after the incident, just to show how much he actually did genuinely feel for me. he said he into romance, guess he's not romantic at all. Everytimes when i overheard the phrases like wojciech, poland, pierogi, polski, name of the club or even the place he stays in London.. my heart pounds so heavily. I don't know what to do anymore to get myself back, but i am trying very hard every days..