Yeah, it's all such a mess and I'm sad and need to vent I guess..
So the thing is, I have this friend. A good friend. I met him through work and at the time he was married. Then his wife left him (for another polish bloke no less) and his heart was properly broken. By that time we were good friends and talked alot.
So after a while we started beeing more than just good friends, you know, sex and all. It has not been easy, he is a devout catholic and struggles alot with the guilt issue of beeing married and having made promises in church to stay faithful to her.
She is still with this other guy and doesnt want to try to fix things.
And stupid me is so in love with him and it has now been a year since she left him.
The problem now is that he seems not to want to get better. He has been depressed and his doc gave him antidepressandts. He took them for some months and things seemed to slowly improve. Not everything seemed to be just problems anymore. Then this summer he went to Poland and stopped taking them for the two weeks he was there. He wanted to drink polish beer and have fun with his brother but promised he would start taking them once he was back here in Norway.
I was in Poland with him for five days and we had such a fantastic time! When I left he couldnt sleep cause I wasnt there. I know he cares about me alot.
Then, lo and behold, after a while back home again, I notice something is off and ask if he's back on the pills. The answer: No, nothing is important to me anymore so why should I take them?
So now, hes not taking his pills, has started to drink alot so he wont think or feel, and pushes me away cause I seem to ask questions that are difficoult about things he would rather not think of.. His ex is not coming back and while I understand that you care about people that has been important to you, I dont understand why you would choose to feel bad. He has said himself that he works alot (12+ hours a day) to keep his mind busy and tire himself out so that the days will just pass.
He is so happy when we are together, but it feels to me like it's almost easier for him to feel bad about his life in general than to try to piece everything together and try to move on.
I dunno, if I hadnt felt that it was worth a fight I probably would have given up a long time ago. Maybe I am fooling myself. I'm just really sad and could use some advice..
Thanks if you made it this far!
So the thing is, I have this friend. A good friend. I met him through work and at the time he was married. Then his wife left him (for another polish bloke no less) and his heart was properly broken. By that time we were good friends and talked alot.
So after a while we started beeing more than just good friends, you know, sex and all. It has not been easy, he is a devout catholic and struggles alot with the guilt issue of beeing married and having made promises in church to stay faithful to her.
She is still with this other guy and doesnt want to try to fix things.
And stupid me is so in love with him and it has now been a year since she left him.
The problem now is that he seems not to want to get better. He has been depressed and his doc gave him antidepressandts. He took them for some months and things seemed to slowly improve. Not everything seemed to be just problems anymore. Then this summer he went to Poland and stopped taking them for the two weeks he was there. He wanted to drink polish beer and have fun with his brother but promised he would start taking them once he was back here in Norway.
I was in Poland with him for five days and we had such a fantastic time! When I left he couldnt sleep cause I wasnt there. I know he cares about me alot.
Then, lo and behold, after a while back home again, I notice something is off and ask if he's back on the pills. The answer: No, nothing is important to me anymore so why should I take them?
So now, hes not taking his pills, has started to drink alot so he wont think or feel, and pushes me away cause I seem to ask questions that are difficoult about things he would rather not think of.. His ex is not coming back and while I understand that you care about people that has been important to you, I dont understand why you would choose to feel bad. He has said himself that he works alot (12+ hours a day) to keep his mind busy and tire himself out so that the days will just pass.
He is so happy when we are together, but it feels to me like it's almost easier for him to feel bad about his life in general than to try to piece everything together and try to move on.
I dunno, if I hadnt felt that it was worth a fight I probably would have given up a long time ago. Maybe I am fooling myself. I'm just really sad and could use some advice..
Thanks if you made it this far!