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SOS!! I feel a little hopeless with my Polish husband... [58]
:'( It's sunday today. He beats me again and even take a knife on my throat, he is warning me don't move stop crying..don't make any sound, his eye is so big, he seems like a bad guy not my husband anymore, he drag me from room to room and kick my hip.. I was begging him to calm down..he droped knife and slapped my face then run away from the home...
The thing begins here...
I didn't go on this form room for many days. I know I don't have the power to change him, so i was about to change myself first...I was trying to make myself busy in the life... I thought he might pay a little attention on me... Yesterday, it was a nice Saturday in Toronoto, sunny day, almost 30 degree, we suppose to go to a show togerther, just because there is a woman called him the day before to meet in the morning at downtown, he told me he has to go, i said ok. Usually, i will be a little upset, because he has already promised me to go somewhere, now he changed just because a call..But this time i said to him, if you have to go to meet her, then don't worry about me, we can go to the show tomorrow, i will go to visit my friend. But he said to me No, he said " you can meet me in downtown, I will finish with her about 12o'clock, we can still go to the show after that." I said ok. That day morning about 10o'clock, he called me, he said I need more time with her, i have to teach her how to make a blog..so i can't meet you later today...(I knew it.. in the begining!! Before he meets that woman every Satuday, he is telling me i can't be with you on Saturday, i have to do business with her, she is my partner...) what business??? I never see him making a penny on that.. he only spends money on Saturday..
All right......he said we can go to the show tomorrow which is Sunday. Now is Sunday, he woke up in early morning spend the whole morning on the Skype talking to someone. I make breakfast, we ate, i asked him when we are going to the show. He told me he doesn't want to go anywhere, he doesn't have money, I knew he spend big money yesterday, and he doesn't want to spend money with me...Before we were going out i always have to pay for him... I am not saying i want to be stingy, just don't feel right, he is saving money to have fun with others, i am saving money for the family. Since we got married, I don't even have wedding ring from him..and he only bought twice flower for me, argue with me the day before my birthday, then he has excuse to get me nothing on birthday... He is always telling me he is poor...I knew it before i chose to marry him. I said to him I don't mind if you are poor, but important is to have a rich heart... Now i feel i married with a poor guy with both inside and outside...
