lonewolf: i wanted "now now now" i was "racing".
No foreplay? That was a grave mistake!
Incidently, what is it you did? Big difference between forgetting her birthday and cheating on her.
did you hit her? By accident, twice?
lonewolf: the last time was too much and i was really pissed, i lost it. extreme loss of consiousness, if you know what i mean.
I don't understand what this means. I must be slow.
Sounds like lone is hiding the real grave scene and now hoping to get some advice from here and maybe even some sympathy on his side.
You wont get an effective advice if you dont tell the truth.
if you love someone you don't hurt them on purpose. it's not logical, you get the opposite effect to the one intended. unless they're into pain (like Rihanna with her chains and whips) hurting them to show them how much you're hurting is just not going to work. let it breathe and wait for the other person to contact you
if you hurt her on purpose (wether it was mental or physical abuse) just because you were confused and you wanted to see her react, than that might be the grave reason.
if what you say that what you did was
is grave enough if you thought you put your trust and love with someone and turns out that you were wrong
so if shes smart and you lost her trust as you say than most likely she wont contact you because you cant have any type of relationship without trust and no one wants to be in any type of abusive relationship.