Law / RC annulment procedure in Poland [13]

Thanks for your informative suggestions. :)

The reason I wanted to get my marriage annuled is that I am not sure if this marriage is valid in this situation. I didn't see my husband for years and I don't feel comfortable to see him again due to the big trauma he left on me. I am not sure whether I will fall in love again with another man but I did turn down a few chances of being loved again over the past few years. On one side I feel I should not live as a widow as everyone has his or her own needs that have to be satisfied; on the other side, I think I should surrender myself to my faith and abandon my ridiculous thoughts of being loved again. It would cause pain if I can't be part of Holy Communion.

The churches both in Poland and the States wanted me to demonstrate that my marraige could not work out anyway before they accept my petition for annulment. So I am thinking about whether my official separation document is enough to be supporting document for this reason? If you know anything about this, please kindly keep me updated.

We were consumated and while we were seeing each other when I was young, I wanted him to be my husband very much, and to be honest, I didn't foresee just a year after our wedding, he started having affairs with different women until he met this one to become stablized. I did try hard to save my marriage for a couple of years before I eventually gave up.

Please offer your insights on how to get my life right again by keeping my faith and my happiness.