Tankulite
13 Oct 2008
Love / My polish girlfriend will not leave [47]
My polish girlfriend is a nightmare. She flirts openly with every guy that we come into contact with, yet she expects me to have no female friends. Like an idiot, she got her way because that is the way it is in the "polish relationship" that I seem to have been dragged into kicking and screaming for dear life. She is obsessive, loud, crude (though much of that crudeness can be traced to my personnal habits) and a borderline psychotic with traces of a deep rooted psychological imbalance (fu***** nutts).
The stupid thing is I love her, still love her so very much, I used to watch her sleeping (this is not as creepy as it sounds, we have been together for 2 years....) and feel like I was the luckiest person in the world, but now even the sight of her or her voice makes me cringe and shudder.
She says that her family have disowned her because me (interacial relationship) and she even left the one thing I thought she wanted more in the world to do than anything (university) to be with me, but now i am not so sure that all the talk and the plans we had together were not an elaborate ruse.
I have now come to the decision that I dont love her enough to justify the mood swings and the tantrums, the rollercoaster ride of emotion, as life never stops and it is moving on without me on the train. The strange thing is that she wont leave, instead she just chuckles and tells me that we will be together forever.....
I dont want to lose my temper with her, but I cant do anything less than physically throw her out, I dont want to do that, and she knows that I wont, but if I did for example change the locks she would just sit outside the door and wait for me to exit.
Im a desperate man who, because of his weak heart and raging loins, fell for a "kobieta fatalne", or maybe Im the one in the wrong? Any input would be greatly appreciated or....
....Ummm.... a little help?
My polish girlfriend is a nightmare. She flirts openly with every guy that we come into contact with, yet she expects me to have no female friends. Like an idiot, she got her way because that is the way it is in the "polish relationship" that I seem to have been dragged into kicking and screaming for dear life. She is obsessive, loud, crude (though much of that crudeness can be traced to my personnal habits) and a borderline psychotic with traces of a deep rooted psychological imbalance (fu***** nutts).
The stupid thing is I love her, still love her so very much, I used to watch her sleeping (this is not as creepy as it sounds, we have been together for 2 years....) and feel like I was the luckiest person in the world, but now even the sight of her or her voice makes me cringe and shudder.
She says that her family have disowned her because me (interacial relationship) and she even left the one thing I thought she wanted more in the world to do than anything (university) to be with me, but now i am not so sure that all the talk and the plans we had together were not an elaborate ruse.
I have now come to the decision that I dont love her enough to justify the mood swings and the tantrums, the rollercoaster ride of emotion, as life never stops and it is moving on without me on the train. The strange thing is that she wont leave, instead she just chuckles and tells me that we will be together forever.....
I dont want to lose my temper with her, but I cant do anything less than physically throw her out, I dont want to do that, and she knows that I wont, but if I did for example change the locks she would just sit outside the door and wait for me to exit.
Im a desperate man who, because of his weak heart and raging loins, fell for a "kobieta fatalne", or maybe Im the one in the wrong? Any input would be greatly appreciated or....
....Ummm.... a little help?