you say God does not exist that means he does not exist.
Oh boy, today's the day, isn't it! Omm, etc God give me strength.
Please do not put words into my mouth. :) Thanks.
The difference between you and me sunshine, is that I do not ram my god damn beliefs (THAT IS ALL THEY ARE!) down other people's throats.
I have my own ideas BUT I am happy to accept that I may not be right.
You however are convinced that you are right and everyone else, that does not agree 100% with you is wrong. Fullstop, end of story.
That is extremism at worst, evangelicalism at best.
You claim you were wrestling with god. Fine you're welcome to that belief.
Other people have exactly the same "experience" as you discribed; the whole bright light, floating off the bed, being manhandled but say they're abducted by aliens instead.
I assume, going on your past form, you'd say they're poor deluded fools as there are no little green men. But then in the next breath claim you were 100% physically being pinned to the deck by an embodiment of someone who alledgedly lived 2000 years ago.
If you aren't prepared to be a bit flexible and admit, there is a slight chance you are wrong, then you are discrediting yourself. (THough you do that everytime you resort to personal insults, as I say very christian of you.
Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself. There is none other commandment greater than these [...] Thou art not far from the kingdom of God. [...] And as ye would that men should do to you, do ye also to them likewise.
Your mileage may vary. :)