Hey everybody, couldnt find a place to Introduce myself sorry about that.
Ive just got a personal story I feel I would like to share about having loved and lost,
Im a 19 year old Male Student from Cambridgeshire England, I dont speak a word of Polish Infact I have only known a small handful of polish people.
Many Moons ago someone added me on msn without my acknowledgement, this happens from time to time and I thought nothing of it and as I do just decided to Find out who this was, After I Introduced myself breifly as she did I, 18 years old From Warsaw, Poland.
We began talking about anything and everything, now sometimes people dont "Click" If you will but for some reason we talked throughout the night and I found out that years ago she had once visited Cambridgeshire for a schooltrip.
Now Im not much of a believer of some kind from Plan set out for us by the bigman but I was Intrigued that she had actually been and described some of the places I see everyday.
Anywho after afew days speaking she managed to Find a camera, and wow...The most beautiful Girl appeared before me with long blonde hair, blue eyes and a brighter smile then most. Anyways we eventually started Talking almost every single night up to 5hours at a time and always had something to talk about, she smiled and I smiled back she blew a kiss that I would inturn send one back.
Her English was absolutely incredible, Infact If she hadnt told me where she was from I would have firmly believed she was English! and Then we began to mail each other, she sent me a letter covered in her perfume and a cute note that I stood proudly beside my bed.
I was confused, I was infatuated with her. I just had to talk with her when I could and everynight all I could think about was her and how much I had to be with this girl, that I had to make this become a reality. About 2months of talk I asked her If it was possible If I could visit her, and to my surprise she was thrilled that I would go that far to see her and she ecstatically replied "TAK!".
I got my ticket and a Month later I was on a Plane alone, travelling to a country I had never dreamt of going too, meeting a girl I was inlove with. Too say I was shy would be an understatement! :P.
After touchdown, checking through and grabbing my case I stepped Into a brisk, windy day In Winter Poland
. Her freind had given her a lift and 5minutes later on time a car rolled to a stop not far from the road ahead of me, and she got out....Wow I know it sounds corny but Love at second sight hit me like a brick and as I approached she smiled like she always had done and Held my hand, looked me in the eyes and with the cutest little accent reassured me with "Hey, everythings going to be alright", as I was a gibbering wreck at the very presence of such an amazing girl.
The next two days ahead of us were unforgettable, we laughed we joked and smiled and then we kissed...and I was smitten. Warsaw was an amazing city, so many sights and sounds although alittle intimidated being an English Guy in Poland she held my hand and I forgot about everything else. It was incredible, I met her freinds who although didnt speak any English were always smiling and joking with me and her. Making a heartshaped piece of paper with our names on and handing it to me, everything was right. And plus they all had a laugh when I asked for milk in my tea!
I met her family at her place and they welcomed me with open arms, we talked about Polish and English relations, about language and football. They were pleasent and made me feel welcome into their home.
We shared the same bed in my hotel room at night and although the first thing that would come to peoples minds would be the obvious....we just talked, cuddled and kissed until she fell asleep in my arms.
As It was only for a weekend the time flew by being with her and as soon as it had started it had drew to an end, about to depart she wiped the tears from her eyes and told me she loved me, how the hell I didnt cry is beyond me but I knew that she was for me, and that when I could. I would get back to her no matter what, afew days later I booked a trip back as soon as I could and had to bear the pain of seeing her on a camera and not being able to get to her.
A short while before I was due to head out again, she had told me her mum was sick and that the family was upset. I would try my best to comfort her and promised her I would make her smile again when I came back. Her exams had been coming up and she was under alot of pressure with exams etc and I gave her spaced everynight to revise.
A month later and I had touched down again at Warsaws Airport but was greeted with a sunnier, warmer atmosphere then previously. I waited anxiously outside when I heard a voice from behind me "Hey sam", it was her and we cuddled and kissed each other to make up for lost time and had rented an apartment together, we settled down just Infront of the Famous market square in OldTown, Warsaw and headed out for a walk...
But this time she was different, alittle destracted and down So I tried cheering her up and making her smile, she had explained that her mum had been getting worse and school was getting to her. And after arriving at our apartment later that night she had realised that she left 50 Zlotys of mine in a Cafe, she became truely upset but I was never angry at her I said "Hey! I wont miss it moneys money doesnt mean a thing" but she was quiet and didnt speak much, so we took a walk out and ate at a posh restaurant before returning to our apartment with a movie and some wine.
We were about to sit down when her sister rang and said they were coming over to visit with freinds, I was annoyed but oblieged and shortly after the room was full of Polish girls all having fun, they sat at her laptop and began to look at pictures of her from a party.
And then I saw...there were pictures of the girl I love in the arms of othermen, with their hands around her waist, kissing her and groping her. I was upset...after her freinds left we watched the movie and lay in bed together, she got a text and answered it "Its just a freind" she replied before putting it down, that was the first night we slept together and then rested with eachother, and then came another message "Hes just wondering what we are doing" she said...at 1 O'clock in the morning "Leave it" I said and as we began to kiss she got another message, I was angry and rolled over because I didnt want to fight and maybe she would have got the message, but no...She began texting him constantly and even left me in the bed, sat on the window sil texting him over and over without saying a word to myself who clearly was upset.
The morning was cold, she got in the shower whilst I was inbed and I decided to make her some tea and toast and began to help her with her english homework. she got out and barely said a word. That day was the day what we had ended, she didnt look me in the eyes, barely spoke only when spoken too and was just so cold to me I tried to understand why and even after asking her she had replied "School", when clearly it was not.....
Airport again and this time she waited until my check in, kissed me quickly and without a single tear rolling down her face said "Bye Sam" and walked away without turning back.
When I got home I burst into tears, I told my brother everything and he said "You dont need her If shes going to act like that", We talked on msn and I explained to her why I was so upset but she didnt seem to care, even telling me "I wouldnt forgive me..", I said that we could remain in contact but it was best If we parted from each other of which she agree'd with right out.
Afew days later I find her myspace she had never told me about with the note;
"I'm the type of girl that guys i've dated talk to me three months later saying, "baby i'm still not over you".
Turns out she still had feelings for her ex boyfreind and I cut her off completely,
I guess its a lesson learnt In life when things seem to good to be true. I guessed It would never have happened to a guy like myself, and I still wonder whether she really did not think about how I felt.
"Never make a girl your everything, because in the end...your left with nothing"
[P.S] Sorry for the Introduction being alittle sad! :P Im alright now.